SoCal

I guess my heart is truely tied to SoCal. More than I will ever have addmitted in the past, or care to acknowledge presently. Was it that perfect weather with out a shread of humidity. Or that layed back chilled attitude that jived so well with me. The music was awesome with a blind you just do not find one the east coast of sounds and genreas being blended in a smooth melody. Or a true cultrual idenity that was strong yet vast and as divers as the cultures that populated the region.

Hell I am atleast three shades darker than when I left. And my eyes reveal a tan line left from my sun glasses, and my feet have the lines of my flip flops. I guess I settled in pretty well to the life. For me it was the beach, family, site seeing, chilling with family I did not know well but who were not much different than me, and amusement parks. What kind of dream life that was for two weeks straight. Why wouldn't your heart be in SoCal?

trapped

We have only just arrived on our trip to SoCal, and already the strong family dynamics threaten to destroy what could be an amazing and fun experince. As each family member most out dual the others planned outing and everyone is force to go and be miserable rather than come and enjoy them self. We have not even reached these events and yet I feel the pressure mounting. The egos are flairing, and atleast I planned enough and am finally old enough to drive that I have a car and can leave when things start to get out of hand.

No longer am I dependent on another person for an escape. Yet it does not change how I feel. I just wish they could see how they where making people feel with all this over the top activity, it is so unnatural. I am not alone in my feelings it tends to be the younger generation, or those who have married in that want less pressure and structure. It is not say stop getting together. As I enjoy seeing the family together. But I don't want all the drama, or one up men's ship that is brought a long for the ride. Let things just ride and happen and be natural.